Wednesday, December 29, 2004


burned the roof of my mouth today. now i can't consume anything without wincing... boooo

3 hours to go and i'm still not finished packing... i suppose some habits will never change :P just wanted to make one last entry for 2004. the holidays are supposed to be relaxing but i've found the opposite to be true for me this year... which i guess isn't so bad, since the craziness has kept me on my toes. also occuring a lot... when the good keeps getting better and the bad just gets worse... but all in all, a fine balance ;)

belated merry Christmas and an early happy new year to all!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004


i went through my shelves and compiled a list of books to read in the next little while:

  1. The Screwtape Letters - C.S. Lewis
  2. Walk On: The Spiritual Journey of U2 - Steve Stockman [finally :P]
  3. Friday - Robert A. Heinlein
  4. Dune - Frank Herbert
  5. Lord of Light - Roger Zelazny
  6. The Left Hand of Darkness - Ursula K. Le Guin
  7. The Silmarillion - J.R.R. Tolkien
  8. Neuromancer - William Gibson
  9. Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
  10. Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte

these should take care of my sleepless nights ;)

Saturday, December 18, 2004

sleepless in markham

what do u do when u can't sleep?

me, i do one of several things... i think. i read. i write. i pray. i think. i study. i sketch. i compose. i think. i paint. i make lists. i eat. i close my eyes and try not to think.

basically i think a lot. perhaps i should add 'i blog' to my list...

or not. once hardly counts :P

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

on the side

it looks like i'll be spending new year's eve on an airplane... and with northwest's infamous delays, perhaps the countdown as well.

woohoo. can't wait.

team regina :)

good memories from summer 2003...
a lot has changed since i left in '95.
when i first arrived, i thought the city had gotten smaller.
just kidding :P
rattana [far right] and i go way back...
arguably my first friend in regina
(and a kickass soccer player on the side).
her friends are an awesome group as well.
they had a softball game on her birthday and i joined them.
we broke a bat, made some great plays, scored a lot of points...
it was their one and only victory of the season.
feel free to draw ur own conclusions ;)

Monday, December 13, 2004

analyze this

what do u see?

pardon my french

some days i'm just downright ashamed of this country. canada has no real backbone, no moral absolutes... and the world loves us for it. it's sickening.

Thursday, December 09, 2004

once upon a time

AI was on tv a coupla weeks ago and i was watching it from the corner of my eye... of course i got sucked in eventually. i've seen it before but i forgot how much i actually liked the movie. i know it didn't get great reviews... but i thought it was great. my ideal bedtime story... very sad, very touching... i cried a little at the end. and i LOVE that bear! i want one for myself. and then this week, i was reading a classic heinlein novel (have space suit-will travel) that i haven't read since i was about 12... and i almost got teary-eyed. almost. not that the story was sad in any way... just that there was this one passage that got me all nostalgic... reminded me of how much passion i had for science as a kid:

It was midday when we left; it was night as we disembarked. The ship rested on a platform that stretched out of sight. Stars in front of me were in unfamiliar constellations; slaunchwise down the sky was a thin curdling which I spotted as the Milky Way. So Peewee had her wires crossed--we were far from home but still in the Galaxy--perhaps we had simply switched to the night side of Vega Five.
I heard Peewee gasp and turned around.
I didn't have strength to gasp.
Dominating that whole side of the sky was a great whirlpool of millions, maybe billions, of stars.
You've seen pictures of the Great Nebula in Andromeda?--a giant spiral of two curving arms, seen at an angle. Of all the lovely things in the sky it is the most beautiful. This was like that.
Only we weren't seeing a photograph nor even by telescope; we were so close (if "close" is the word) that it stretched across the sky twice as long as the Big Dipper as seen from home--so close that I saw the thickening at the center, two great branches coiling around and overtaking each other. We saw it from an angle so that it appeared elliptical, just as M31 in Andromeda does; you could feel its depth, you could see its shape.

*sniff* what a beautiful description... i remember, back when i could count my age on two hands, reading about and looking at pictures of nebulas, stars, planets... in grade 4 the teacher asked us what we wanted to be when we grew up, and i distinctly remember saying that i wanted to be an astronomer. originally i was fascinated by the microscope kit my dad had sent me, but my passion quickly got me looking spaceward. my uncle used to send us a lot of books... dinosaurs for my brother, space stuff for me. at the time i knew that whatever it was i did in life, it would certainly be in the field of science.

i wonder what happened along the way to make me so adamant against pursuing anything 'science' now... i loved it once. well, maybe a part of me still does... it's never failed to wow me, that's for sure... *sigh* what a shame to see a passion like that go to waste.


bought my present for the fellowship gift exchange this sunday... wow, that was an amusing buy :P kinda pleased with my idea... hope no one else thought of it.

rumour has it that F4 will be reuniting, woohoo!! maybe sometime next year to film a movie. i love seeing those four together. [i originally had a whole paragraph here about their singing abilities, particularly live... but i decided to edit it out... couldn't bare criticizing my precious F4 :P]

Wednesday, December 08, 2004


ever since last week, i've had this immense craving for bread... plain, white bread... and i've been inhaling the stuff like there's no tomorrow. every night my grandpa comes home with a loaf of bread or a bag of buns, but it's gone by the next day so he has to buy some more. and when i say plain, i mean PLAIN... no butter, no jam, no filling... i love eating bread on its own. (it's gotta be white though.) maybe microwaved if i want it extra warm and moist. i figured i'd be over my craving by now, but no... far from it... i've eaten 5 pieces of bread and 2 buns so far today... and the night's not over! dunno what's wrong with my appetite these days. well, my sleeping pattern was 12 hours off a while back... i fixed that already, but it turns out i left my appetite behind... explains why i'm least hungry at noon and most hungry at midnight.

alrighty, i'm off to heat myself another bun.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004


GGHG change of command parade - sept 2001
yes, that's a real bayonet attached to my C7. dull, but real.
like everything else i was issued, my blues were oversized...
i looked like i had no hands while marching :P
we stood in ranks as the governor general walked by.
she stopped to talk to me... i'll always remember that.

Monday, December 06, 2004


goodness... december's here alright... it's CRAZY snowing out there... so dangerous too... never knew the camry could skate like that... took so long to drop off my brother and come home... thank goodness i brought my F4 music along :P

wish i could take a picture.